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Last April 22 was our baby boy Zac’s 2nd birthday. He isn’t here anymore because he is celebrating his birthday in heaven.
A blogger friend of mine who writes for Smart Parenting asked for contributions from people who underwent a difficult trial and now have new hope. I volunteered but was a little unsure if I could actually write about my Zac. You see, after his death, I was so worried that I would forget what happened so I wanted to record everything. I’ve tried many times to write it down but could never finish it. It was just too painful to recall all that happened to us. In fact, because of the pain, I literally couldn’t write after his death. The act of sitting down and focusing on my writing was too much because once I’m quiet, my mind becomes filled with thoughts of him and our traumatic experience.
Little by little, I found a new hope, a new joy brought about only by the grace of our good Lord. He is our great Comforter and He never fails. Many months after Zac’s death, when the pain was still too much, I realized that I never asked God to comfort me. I asked Him to comfort my kids and my husband and the rest of my family, but not me. I guess it just never occurred to me. So one day, I prayed and asked Him for comfort.
Comfort came in many ways. Peace is the result. I found my peace with God and our experience. And so, last month, I finally sat down to write about my precious baby. There’s still one part that I still find hard to write about and that’s the last few days he spent at the NICU. On April 22, on his 2nd birthday, I decided that I’ll be praying for other mommies out there who mourn the loss of their child. I got a surprise when I opened Facebook and found that my article was published a few days before his birthday.
I wrote it to bring encouragement and hope to other moms who mourn. I am one with you and pray that it will encourage you.
Click on the title to read my article on Smart Parenting. Warning: get your tissues ready before reading.
STORIES OF SURVIVAL AND HOPE: When You Lose A Child
