Though I have come to accept this, I still ask God daily “Why?” Why did Zac have to die? Why my child? Why me? Why do my children have to suffer grief? Why did God plan that Gary D. and I should have to go through so much pain and heartache? Why did we have to lose our child? So many unending questions with hardly any answers.
One day as I was reading my Bible, I found this verse and it held an answer for me. It did not answer my questions specifically, but the answer from God is enough.
John 16:33 was the chapter when Jesus Christ was preparing his disciples for his coming death. This is what He tells them to encourage them. He told them the truth: that there will be trouble, trials and sorrows in this world. Then He gave an assurance, they must take heart, He has overcome the world.
I felt peace after that. Jesus knew that his death will not be lightly taken by his disciples. He was the Beloved. Though He knew that He will suffer and that He will die soon, He took time to prepare and encourage His disciples. He gave them hope.
The answer, then, to all of my “why’s” is “why not?” Sorrow, grief and suffering is a part of this world. The wonderful news is: God has overcome the world! When Zac died on that night, he went into the loving arms of God in Heaven. Zac is alive in Heaven. The time will come when we will join him there to worship the Lord together. In the meanwhile, despite my grieving heart, I choose to keep moving on, always grateful for every day that He gives us.
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oh michelle, my heart goes out to you again. i thank God for the strength of your faith that despite your heartache, you still care enough to share it with others. God bless your heart. hugs Online casino Ireland. ###
Dear May,
Thank you for your comment. Honestly, this burden of grief is just too heavy for me to bear alone. This is mainly why I also take time to talk about it, to write about it. If I don't do this, I will most likely be overcome by it. In sharing the grief and sharing how God is helping me, I also have the comfort of the blogging community behind me. So thank you very much for sharing in my grief.
God bless you!
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